i don't understand

i don't understand
i really really don't understand
why does she needs to do that to me in front of everyone?
why she needs to do that on her birthday?
why can't she have a happy day?
why can't she say properly?
why can't she speak to me personally?
WHY?
TELL ME WHY?

WHY DO I PLAN THIS BIRTHDAY?
WHY SHOULD I SPEND MY MONEY ON STUFF SHE DOESN'T EVEN WANTS TO LOOK AT IT?
WHYY??????

WHY AM I GETTING ALL THE SCOLDING WHEN I DID NOTHING WRONG???
WHY DO YOU NEED TO SCREAM AT ME WHEN I SAY NO?
WHY DO YOU NEED TO DO SUCH STUFF ON YOUR BDAY?
DID I EVEN ASK YOU TO DO?
IS JUST IXIT YOUR LUCK
BUT WHY ME?
TELL ME!
WHY ME???????



ALL THis INSANENESS IS GETTING ON ME
I REALLY REALLY DONT GET IT
ALL THE EFFORTS I PLACE IN
WHAT DO I GET?


NOTHING
NOT EVEN A THANK YOU

YOU JUST SHOOT ME INFRONT OF EVERYONE
saNG YOU BDAY SONG
AND YOU SAY YOU AREN't HAPPY
SCOLDED ME SUMORE
WHY

WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME?


AM I THAT USELESS?
AM I THAT STUPID?
WHY AM I TREATED LIKE THAT?
I CAN GIVE UP ANYTHING
AS LONG AS YOU ARE HAPPY
I CAN DONT NEED A CAR
I CAN DONT NEED ANYTHING
I JUST WANT YOU HAPPY
I DONT WANT YOU TO SCREAM AT ME EVERY SINGLE DAY
WHENEVER I TELL YOU STUFF
YOU JUST SCREAM STRAIGHT AT ME
NVR ASK ME WHY?
HOW? OR WHAT EVEN HAPPEN EXACTLY?
YOU JUST SCOLDED ME
AND THEN WAD?
I NEED TO SAY SORRY?
WHAT ARE THESE?
I WANNA KNOW WHY?

AM I BORN TO BE TREATED LIKE THIS?









im not in a good mood now
have been crying for at least 1 hour
now still tearing
I REALLY REALLY DONT UNDERSTAND

T______T